This is where I ask all of you when reading this to please keep all opinions to one’s self until you have fully read this; and if you’re reading this to someone, then I want all of you that is currently listening to shut your eyes and envision with your mind the imagery when taking this in… and simply take in my words as a nation united together as merely “one”.
We all were perched on the edge of our seats on the cold night of November twenty-fourth because we all wanted to hear the verdict of another court case that my own African-American culture needed an honest, untainted justification for.
A broken, and very much, a damaged country appeared finally to be united as a whole yet that is far from whatever we all want to believe.
If you want to judge these boys because of their behaviors when they were teenagers, then you are judging me and holding me to the standard of whom I use to be as a young girl and not as the woman who stands in front of you today. Let’s be honest, that is clearly an assassination of my integrity and character.
I’m just being honest.
Who is anyone to judge these boys, and many countless others, of their past behaviors that has been warped by nature and their environment? Reminder, these children haven’t even made it to their adult life to defend who they were supposed to be.
Like Darren Wilson and George Zimmerman, shouldn’t their memory be left alone and be set justly free?
Today, I’m calling out anyone who has brought up these boys’ preceding characters because the real topic is truly about police brutality that are killing our American kids.
One probable career choice is that yes, these young men could have grown into another black man statistic; living their life filled with the numerous of women as their babies’ mothers, selling a nickel there, a dime sack here to your own children… while you are too focused on being selfish within this nation.
Mankind, why am I NOT enough?
Another possible career choice is that they could’ve grown into being a world renowned researcher with the most systematic answer to beat out all AIDS cases and the different types of cancers.
It’s honestly too bad that we will never know that heartrending answer.
It’s very sad, and unfathomable, that these mothers won’t ever be able to get the chance to celebrate another holiday with their sons all because of a hatred that has been instilled in our souls since the beginning of our mere existence.
My question is- are you just living or now barely breathing?
Tonight, I want to ask you something, mankind.
AM I MERELY ENOUGH?!
Because our skin colors may differ, does that adequately translate into: “Mankind, why am I NOT enough?”
Is my culture, the African-American culture, so wrong to be asking for an answer during this time of another fucked up political decision?
Oh America, you are playing a very dangerous game of rattling angry souls.
Deep down, we all know how this story will unfold.
Right now, I want to be direct.
At this very moment, I just want to be truthful.
It’s my time to be blunt.
During this time within our nation, I want to scream with anguish.
I want to purge because my soul is quite famished.
Yes, I am asking you.
I AM begging you all- to feel all of my empathy.
No, I don’t want any pity.
My pain, etched in my soul, has been carried over from the harsh reality from historical hate crimes of these past centuries alone.
The irony is now that majority of all of you, want us all to be classified and labeled as citizens of an enormous humanity class.
You want the motto to be- we all are the same but yet one of a kind.
Now, you all want us to be peaceful yet nonjudgmental and blind.
If this is the case, I want you to muster up the strength to feel my spirit, deep down within my soul, as it trembles with anxiety and fear; to feel what I am feeling as I mourn and grieve alongside Mike Brown’s mother and father and Trayvon Martin’s parents because their son’s lives weren’t valued enough but someone determined on their own twisted, corrupted moral system that these boys were just “good enough” to be labeled as another casualty of our mankind’s fucked up brutality.
Please share the pain since you all want talk about mankind being as “one”.
We all know that the evident truth that can’t be ignored because of scientific facts that on the surface of things within our civilization…. at the end of the day when you strip away a person’s clothes, a person’s skin color, and a person’s flesh, we all bleed the same color, we all bleed as “one”.
Mankind, why am I NOT enough?
My “privileged” people of mankind, when you are spending your next holiday with your children, I want you to sit there and ponder.
How does it feel to know that your children will always be known as “good enough” while your sister and brothers related through mankind, our humanity class, has to explain to their children why they are even good enough to sit with you and yours?
Doesn’t that bring your soul to tears?
Aren’t we all from the same humanity class?
So why must I teach my children a different life lesson than what you are preaching?
Aren’t we all the fucking same?
Are we all united as “one”?
Again, Mankind, tell me, why my dark skin will never, ever be enough?